November 5th - Thankful Day 5

We will NEVER be able to express just how Thankful we are to that VERY SPECIAL AND VERY SELFLESS person who has helped to make the last 2 months of IUI possible. 

Without this person in our lives, we would not have the chance to achieve having a child and parenthood through the very special way that we have been trying. 

Thank you so much God for letting everything fall right into place and for that special person that was so willing to help us out in such a very special way.  I just pray that one day, we will be able to show such gratitude for all that he has done for us.

Trent holding the vial of sperm

November 4th - Thankful Day 4

I am so Thankful that I have found my soulmate.  A soulmate is the best thing in the whole world for they are the one who knows and understands everything you're going through.
Today's Thankful, we are going to make a little special by saying something special about one another.

My husband is one heck of an amazing man.  God has truly blessed me with an amazing man that I am so proud to call my husband.  He is so strong and supportive at all times.  I often wonder how he stays so strong.  He knows just what to do to make me laugh even when all I want to do is cry.  I absolutely love his personality, attitude, outlook on life, smile, geez the list could go on and on.  It seems he is always doing something to make me fall in love with him over and over again.  I admire my husband in so many ways as I feel he is such a huge inspiration to me and many others.  I absolutely can not wait to make him a father as I know he will be the best daddy I have ever seen.

My wife is the best thing that has ever happened to me.  My wife is my best friend and soulmate.  I thank God that I was able to meet my wife at college.  If she nor I did not recieve a scholarship at Motlow State, I would have never been able to meet the love of my life that she is today.  I love her sense of humor and personality.  She is good with children and I can't wait to make her a mother. 

Thank You God for blessing us with each other.  We are truly soulmates for one another and definately balance one another out.  I must say though, I definately feel Trent balances me more than I do him.

November 3rd - Thankful Day 3

Oops, I was busy yesterday and was unable to post Thankful Day 3 so here it is.

Haha oh what a thing to be Thankful for but we are so Thankful for Bullet.  I could not imagine our home without our Bullet.  Our dog has absolutely helped to comfort me in so many ways.  Back when we first found everything out about infertility, I would be at home alone and crying and he was so comforting when he would jump up in my lap and lay with me with his head tucked up under my chin.  It was like he knew when something was wrong and he was always there to comfort me. 

Thank You God for blessing me with such a sweet, loyal, loving dog that is so comforting and loving.

"Don't Feel 2 Good, Just Feel 1 Good"

I feel so good about this round of IUI that it honestly is terrifying me.  With IUI #1, I honestly felt in my heart that it was not going to work and I would not let myself get my hopes up but this time is totally different.  I feel too good about it.  It scares me that I am going to get my hopes up this time and end up hurt.  I have honestly probably already cried more over this IUI than I did the last one.  Last night as I was crying, I told Trent "I just feel too good about it.  I feel so good that it scares me".  His response to me was "Don't feel 2 good, just feel 1 good".  Lol.  That is what I love about him.  He is so crazy and silly.  Haha something I just thought about, I want to feel 2 Good, and not 1 Good.  2 Good meaning 2 babies good. lol

Another silly story of Trent is the other day we were golfing and he hit his first ball bad and then hit a second one which was good.  He replied with "It's always better the second time".  We kinda chuckled at that and said that we sure hope it is better the second time.  Well, as we are done with IUI #2, it sure was better the second time.  MUCH BETTER.  I still can not believe how well yesterday went. 

I can think of several reasons as to why maybe God didn't allow it to work the first time but this time on the other hand, it seems everything is just falling right into place.  So a couple of the reasons I can think of is:
1)  IUI #1, only my mom got to go and Trent's mom didn't because of work.  She was so bummed that she wasn't able to go so, Maybe God didn't allow it to work on IUI #1 because both Granny's needed to be there to be able to experience something so special.
2)  It hit me a little over a week ago and I can not wait until the day that we can call our donor and tell him the news.  If we would have gotten pregnant off of IUI #1, he probably would not have been the first to know however this time, he will absolutely be the VERY FIRST person to know. He has been such a miracle and blessing to us that I could not imagine letting anyone else know before him.  Maybe God didn't allow it to work on IUI #1 because out of all respect and appreciation, he deserves to be the first one to know. Other than me and Trent knowing, we are most excited about telling him.
3)  We found out last night that as of Saturday, Trent is being moved to day shift and I have been told that I am going to day shift in December. Maybe God didn't allow it to work on IUI #1 because he was just waiting for all things to fall right into place at work so me and Trent could both be on normal schedules at work with a child on the way.

I think you have to pull the positive out of any situation.  As I have said before, I think there is a positive in everything.  Sometimes you may have to dig deep to find it but there is always a positive in everything.
The Ovidrel (HSG) trigger shot can give you false pregnancy symptoms however it didn't last month so why would it this month?  Well, since I didn't have false symptoms last month, I am praying that I get sick soon.  That is really sad to say but maybe if I end up sick, it will be the real deal.  I honestly don't want to be sick during pregnancy but all I can say is "BRING IT ON".  As long as we are pregnant, I pray I can tough it through anything.

Just wanted to update the blog as this go around definitely is much different with many different emotions than last time.  We are doing well just more than ready already for the 2WW to be over.  Hmm, just may have to start a count down so 12 DAYS TO GO UNTIL WE HAVE SOME NEWS!!!

November 2nd - Thankful Day 2

We are Thankful for GOD because through God, ALL things are possible. 

In our marriage, we have learned so much over the past year and it is only by the Grace of God that we have been able to do some of the things we have done.

We are so very blessed in so many different aspects of our lives and again, we can only give the Glory to God for blessing us in so many ways.

I Thank God each and everyday for blessing our lives and for being such a big part of our lives.

November 1st - Thankful Day 1

As I said before, I will be doing 25 days of Thankfulness where each day we will post something we are thankful for. 

I know this is silly to basically repost since I pretty much said all of this in the previous post but we are Thankful for our IUI today. 

We are so Thankful that we are not at the end of our tries with IUI and we had another chance today to try to achieve having a child and being parents.

Even though we did not have 3 eggs as we did last month, we are Thankful that there was atleast 1 big healthy egg ready for ovulation yesterday measuring in at 24.5 mm.

We are so Thankful that we had great numbers today in just 1 vial and not 2 as we thought it would be. 

We are very Thankful that we got out MUCH cheaper with this round of IUI than we did last month.

We are Thankful that both of our mothers got to join us during the IUI today to share in such a special time in our lives.

Last but definately not least, we are so Thankful and Grateful to God for answering prayers and blessing us with the chances to try and acheive parenthood. 

Thank You God for blessing us and for making all of this possible for us.



Me and Trent with our Moms after the IUI.

IUI # 2 = Excitement, Good Feelings, & Answered Prayers

Today was a wonderful day.  I absolutely could not have asked for today to have went any better.  All I can say is God sure does answer prayers. 

After the last procedure, I didn't want to get exact with everyone giving numbers and such but, today was so wonderful, I am going to break everything down to share it with everyone.  As I said last time, the woman said our numbers were not anywhere near what they like to see them at but, they had gotten someone pregnant off of less than what we had so not to give up.  They unthawed vial #1 and in that vial, we only had 1.2 million motile sperm.  She said that they like to see 10 million motile sperm therefore she would recommend unthawing another one.  At that point, we agreed and they unthawed vial #2.  In that vial, we only got 1.6 million motile sperm which ended us with 2.8 million motile sperm.  They had said that the ONLY reason numbers was low is because when sperm is unthawed, it will kill at least half of the motile sperm if not more.  During the last procedure, we were so disheartened that they want to see 10 million and we only got to use 2.8 million.  We also knew after this that each procedure would take 2 vials which meant that we only had 3 tries.  Well, today on the way to the fertility center for the IUI, I prayed that we would have enough numbers in one vial to use only 1 and not to have to use 2 like last time.  We get checked in, verify things and then we would have to wait an hour and a half for the unthawing process.  During that time, we went to get something to eat and then went back.  While eating, we started getting super antsy because we was not ready at all to hear what our numbers were this time.  When they called us back, the woman said "ok, lets get started" to where last time she said "lets go in this room and talk about it".  When I noticed the difference in what she said, I thought, hmm this has to be good.  Well, low and behold, it was excellent.  In 1 vial this time, we had 8.3 million motile sperm.  That is 5.5 million more motile sperm than we had last time.  Today's procedure therefore only took 1 vial since we were not far off from what they like to see.  The nurse also said that my uterus would not be able to hold the full amount of a 2nd vial so it would have just been a waste.  God is an awesome God because he definitely answered that prayer for us.  Going into today, we thought we would only have 1 try left after today but we now have 2 tries and could possibly be more if we only used 1 vial on other tries also.  We are praying that this time is the last time that we need to get pregnant however, the extra vials would be there for future use for more children if needed or wanted.  Right now though, we will just be tickled to death and so grateful to God if we were just blessed with one.

Ok, not only were our numbers WONDERFUL but for the last procedure, we paid $826 however this time, we only had to pay $125 because we had a credit and then it was cheaper since only 1 vial was used.  

After the last procedure, I did not feel good about it at all and during the 2WW, I would not let myself get my hopes up or get excited as I didn't want to be absolutely heart broken if it did not work.  I am already concerned about this go around because I feel SO good about it.  I am honestly scared to feel this good because if it does not work then I am just setting myself up for heart break.  This excitedness is bound to wear off at some point and some fears set in however right now, I could not be any happier. 

We were blessed this time as both of our mothers got to be there with us during this special time.  It is not only a very special part of mine and Trent's lives but it is also very special for the hopefully soon to be grandparents so we are tickled to death to get to share a time like this with them. 

Me and Trentie waiting to be called back

Trent holding the vial of sperm.  That's right the vial, not vials!

Me and Trent right after IUI

Trent's mom - my wonderful mother in law - with us right after IUI

My wonderful mom with us right after IUI

The 4 of us after IUI

Me and Trent giving some love after the IUI. lol.

I am learning of more and more people that read our blog that I had no clue about and It has been said to me a couple times lately and 2 times today at that that me blogging our journey is an inspiration.  I often wonder how much I should say on our blog but it does make me very happy to know that we are an inspiration to some people out there.  It also makes me happy to know that hopefully someone out there could possibly learn from our experiences we have been through.  I can tell you that I don't know of 1 person that has taken the route that we are going and it would have definitely helped me in the beginning if I had known just 1 person so I hope that I can continue to inspire people and possibly help them through our journey.

We honest to God appreciate from the very bottom of our hearts all the supportive words and prayers that have been given to us over this time.  During difficult times, you definitely learn who your true friends are and who is going to be there for you when you need it most and I am amazed at all the love and support that we have received.

I know everyone is tired of me asking but Please continue to keep us in your prayers as we will be testing on November 14th which is 2 weeks from yesterday so hopefully we will have some WONDERFUL news to share with everyone at that time.