April was National Infertility Month so I am a little late posting this however, I feel the need to just express stuff as Infertility is a never ending thing. So first I want to start with something that I saw on facebook.
Did you know while you are at home sound asleep in your bed with your child asleep down the hall from you there is a woman somewhere who just took a pregnancy test who is hoping and praying that this might finally be the one; there's a woman somewhere crying herself to sleep because she took that pregnancy test today and the answer was another negative; another couple is crying themselves to sleep... because the doctor told them that they miscarried their child; birth parents have backed out on adoptive parents leaving them with an empty nursery; a couple has decided after numerous attempts that they can no longer afford the financial burdens and they will go on in life without children. Think of this as you hold your child in your arms, get them ready for school, cut the crusts off their bread. All these things you take for granted.......there's someone out there who would give anything just to have just 1 little sweet bundle of joy. What you consider a headache is someone else's miracle. Think of that the next time you want to throw your arms up in frustration. You really are much more lucky than you realize!
Now, I am probably going totally out of line for saying what I am fixing to say however, I am gonna say it anyways. As I never in a million years imagined experiencing infertility, I never in a million years would have ever known what those people experiencing infertility felt like. All I want to throw out there is something for you all who are pregnant or have kids to think about. Even though you will still NEVER fully understand what it is like, maybe if you look at it in this aspect, it will maybe bring a little bit of reality to you.
That sweet baby that is making you sick, that sweet baby you feel kicking and you see that ultrasound and their heartbeat, that sweet baby that you are giving a bottle, that sweet baby you are rocking to sleep, just imagine if you COULD NOT have that. I have no clue what it is like to be sick from my whacked out hormones from a child. I have no clue what it is like to feel that baby kick or see that ultrasound or their heartbeat but I could only imagine the IMMEDIATE love and affection you have for that child. Again, just imagine if you could NEVER have that. How would you feel if everyone around you had this but you?
My heart absolutely breaks each and every time I think about not having a child and just continuously hearing of more and more people being pregnant. It just RIPS my heart in half to know that before long, everyone in my family will have a child but me and Trent. Again, I know that I shouldn't be this way but unfortunately, infertility does it to you. Due to everyone having children but me is the reason I don't particularly care to be around people these days. If I can just stay to myself and my immediate families, I feel like I am good to go.
Sorry for this rant however, I just want to bring a little but of light to the whole infertility situation. Please, before you take things for granted, realize how blessed you are if you are expecting or if you have a child.
