Who knew 2 years and 9 months after our Wedding that I would be reminded so much of our Wedding Vows. As I posted our silly picture last night, 1 specific verse in our Vows came to mind. It now brings tears to my eyes and gives me chills for the simple fact of how true they are.
They met as individuals and so remain but strengthen because they have also become one. They look forward to the future knowing that they can face whatever it may hold because of their unity. May their love forever shine as one as a beacon for others.
It amazes me because without our Unity, we would not be able to face what we are going through these days. And when I say this, I mean it from the very bottom of my heart. I truly pray that Our love does forever shine as a beacon for someone out there and give someone inspiration that Marriage truly is a wonderful thing and the biggest blessing in some peoples lives. I honestly feel that you can tell how crazy in love we are with one another and hope it shows to the whole world.
Ok, now that I have gotten all mushy with you all, I will go but not with out one last comment. Please (anyone and everyone) don't take for granted what you have. I know I am more blessed than I ever deserve. Thank You God for blessing me with one heck of an amazing marriage.
I am Blessed and we all are. Some people don't see their blessings but trust me if you dig deep, you will see that even if you don't think there is a positive in a situation, there is truly a blessing in disguise
Thursday, January 20, 2011
8 Years!!!
Wow, really? Just a quick update. We have been together for 8 years today. That is crazy, it seems like just yesterday. I can not believe time has passed us by so quickly. We have had one heck of a crazy, memorable, past a amazingly wonderful present and we can't wait to see what our future holds for us!!!
We have been doing great. I know I kind of left everyone hanging on the last post and again I apologize but we did get some good news on our "Journey" today so we can't wait for the next step and to see how everything progresses.
Before getting the good news today, I was cleaning out drawers and closets and came across this. It did make me very sad because we have such a desire to be able to use this. Now before people think I am crazy for already having this, let me just say there is a purpose in which I cant say right now but I haven't seen it in like a year so it made it a little hard to see it and know the thoughts behind it.
Then we got our good news SEVERAL hours later and it totally cheered me up. Of course, we had to take pictures for the scrapbook so I could put a page in there of our good news so here is our Happy picture.
Next, we were trying to be excited however, Trent saw my face and started busting out laughing. No, this picture did not turn out how it was supposed to look however in my opinion better. It shows the true us. Always happy with one another and can make each other laugh. I absolutely Love this man with ALL MY HEART AND SOUL and truly Thank God for blessing me with him. I LOVE this picture.
Now, here is what the picture above was supposed to be. We are so excited, anxious, and nervous on our news for our next step of our "journey" but we can't wait!!!
We have been doing great. I know I kind of left everyone hanging on the last post and again I apologize but we did get some good news on our "Journey" today so we can't wait for the next step and to see how everything progresses.
Before getting the good news today, I was cleaning out drawers and closets and came across this. It did make me very sad because we have such a desire to be able to use this. Now before people think I am crazy for already having this, let me just say there is a purpose in which I cant say right now but I haven't seen it in like a year so it made it a little hard to see it and know the thoughts behind it.
Then we got our good news SEVERAL hours later and it totally cheered me up. Of course, we had to take pictures for the scrapbook so I could put a page in there of our good news so here is our Happy picture.
Next, we were trying to be excited however, Trent saw my face and started busting out laughing. No, this picture did not turn out how it was supposed to look however in my opinion better. It shows the true us. Always happy with one another and can make each other laugh. I absolutely Love this man with ALL MY HEART AND SOUL and truly Thank God for blessing me with him. I LOVE this picture.
Now, here is what the picture above was supposed to be. We are so excited, anxious, and nervous on our news for our next step of our "journey" but we can't wait!!!
One last thing I want to say just in general. There used to be so many people (family and friends) that I would talk to and keep up with and then there are some that I never have been too good at keeping up with however I just want everyone to know that I don't mean to forget about you all. Honestly, these days, I feel sometimes it is difficult to keep up with myself. To me just hearing the word Infertility is horrific to me. There are MANY and likely nobody but 1 (that I know of) or 2 (maybe, in another sense) people that read my blog that will EVER know what I am or have been going through. This is a very difficult thing to go through that no one could ever understand unless being in this specific situation. Even others with infertility will probably even experience or feel differently than I do due to different situations. Some with infertility can still have their own children and conceive naturally and some can't therefore it makes it very different in many aspects. It is so hard to explain and not just come out and say it all but I just want everyone to know I still love you all and ONE DAY, I am sure I will come around again.
Anyways, I hope everyone else is doing well. Until Next time, cya.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Some more Scrapbooking of our Journey
Alright, here is more to Our Infertility Journey. Unfortunately, unless something changes, this will probably be all that you see and I will not be posting anymore. Click on the pages to see them bigger and be able to read the writing better.
Sorry to leave you all hanging but MAYBE one day when our Journey is over, you all will get to see the rest. Hope you all have enjoyed your sneak peak into our Journey.
Sorry to leave you all hanging but MAYBE one day when our Journey is over, you all will get to see the rest. Hope you all have enjoyed your sneak peak into our Journey.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Infertility Journey
I have decided to do a scrapbook called Our Infertility Journey. This has been a very difficult thing to go through and I would never in a million years have imagined having to go through something like this. Several weeks ago was VERY rough on me and all I could do to relieve my feelings was to lay down in bed, cry and write in a journal (which I DO NOT do) for about 4 hours. To my surprise, it helped a TON. Saying that this helped so much, I figured doing the Scrapbook would be a great way to also express myself and at the same time be able to look back in several years and appreciate it.
I will not be posting all pages I make due to us wanting to keep half of our Journey private but what part I do post, I hope you all enjoy.
The pages will go in the scrapbook in the order that I have them posted here. ENJOY! (I know some of you have already read for the most part what is on the pages telling our stories. However, I have reworded them for the scrapbook some)
I will not be posting all pages I make due to us wanting to keep half of our Journey private but what part I do post, I hope you all enjoy.
The pages will go in the scrapbook in the order that I have them posted here. ENJOY! (I know some of you have already read for the most part what is on the pages telling our stories. However, I have reworded them for the scrapbook some)
Just an update for now, everything with our Journey for now is going great. Much better than I would have ever imagined it going just as of a month ago. We are VERY blessed and taking this journey one day at a time. I am a strong believer everything happens for a reason and in MANY cases we may never know the reason or even understand the reason. As it is hard to find much good in our situation, there has already become good out of it. I can only imagine what more good is about to come.
Hope everyone else is doing well.
Monday, January 3, 2011
It's A Love Story....
The Haddock's Love Story!
I have always said just how much I LOVE our story. Ok, maybe I just love it because it is our story however, I figured I would share our story for everyone.
(written by Ashlie)
It was August 2002 and I had just started college at Motlow and was playing softball. I was in a relationship that was very rocky and basically coming to an end (and did end in October). I had some classes with some of the baseball boys however never really talked to anyone. Ok, now anyone that knows me, knows that if I don't know you, I am not going to talk to you much. I did however talk to 1 guy in particular quiet a bit and his name was Bennett. He was always picking on me and hinting that one of the other baseball guys liked me. I had always ignored it and not thought much about it. I don't really remember when it was but I kinda put it together who it was (and was later told it WAS Trent) but still never talked to anyone just because I was that quiet shy person who never did talk. Finally, along came January. In January, a lot of the softball and baseball team was getting together at Trent's place. Trent had talked to one of my friends, Crystal, on the softball team and got her to bring me over so we could meet and get to know one another. We had 2 classes together however still never talked to each other at all. I think the only thing that was ever said between us was one time when I was sick, Bennett was making fun of me becuase my voice was basically gone and he wanted me to say something to Trent just so they could pick on me. Anyways, back to the story. So, I went to Trent's place that night with a Crystal and couple of friends. There were a ton of people there and someone already sitting on the couch beside Trent so me and Crystal just sat in the corner. Her in a recliner and me in the floor. We just sat there and talked for a few basically in our own little world. After a few minutes, the person beside Trent got up so I figured at that time, "ok, Trent had someone to bring me so he could meet me so now, he will ask me to come sit beside him." Boy was I wrong. We sat there "in the corner" for a while longer. Finally, I said, "Forget this, Lets go." I basically saw it to be pointless to be there if he was not going to talk to me. We then left and literally like a minute later, another friend who rode with us, her phone started ringing. It was Trent wanting to talk to me. We talked for just a few minutes and had decided that he would come back to Crystal's place instead of me going back to his after just leaving. Just a few minutes later, he showed up and it was a very late night after he showed up. It was really quiet humorous to see us trying to get to know one another. We are both pretty shy upon meeting someone so we both were pretty quiet. Trent did say A LOT more than I did though. He would ask a question and I would give a VERY quick and short response and maybe every now and then think of a question to ask him. Trent had brought someone with him which I later found out was actually his get away if he was not getting into getting to know me. Guess from that point, I was good to go because he never got the dude to be his get away and I am thinking it was about 3 or 4 in the morning before he left that night. He had liked me since August however never approached it since I was dating someone and he never knew till January that we had broke up. We have been attached at the hip since that night that I will NEVER forget. January 20, 2003.
We completed that semester at school and even though it was only my freshman year in college, it was Trent's sophomore year therefore he was getting ready to leave Motlow and go to Martin Methodist in Pulaski to continue playing baseball there. He had stayed at Motlow for summer school which was great for us because it gave us a couple more months to be together. We had lived 10 minutes down the road from one another and then the tough part comes. He moves about an hour and a half away. Wow, was this difficult. It took TONS of adjustments to get used to having a basically 2 hour long distance relationship. We really struggled a lot with tons of fighting during this time frame. Ok, I pretty much knew after the first week of having Trent that he was mine and mine to keep forever however during this long distance relationship time frame, it definitely put a strain on things and had me questioning at times. Lets just make this part of the story quick by saying it was basically constant fighting for a year or a little longer. Trent then moved out of the dorms and into his own apartment and at that point, things got a little better however it was still rocky at times. FINALLY, he graduates college and things would soon get better for us. Trent then moved back in with his parents which was even 30 minutes further which did make it 2 hours. At this point, we had been together for about 2 and a half years with 2 years of long distance relationship. Things slowly but surely made a total turn around for us. We finally figured out how to make things work even with the long distance part. For a couple more years, things were going great even with all the previous struggles and continued long distance. Now lets jump ahead.
Finally after 4 years of dating (approx 6 months 10min away from one another and 3.5 years of long distance). It was January 20, 2007, 4 years to the day after we met and started talking. I started school to be a Sleep Technologist at Vol State and did not know how to get there therefore, Trent would take me and then we would stop in Nashville to eat. We got to Nashville and had decided to eat a Demo's. While in Demos, Trent says "I got something to show you". He then pulls out a portable DVD player and starts a DVD for me. There was a party of about 20 next to us so they were VERY loud and I could not hear anything on the DVD. Trent says ok, fine then, I will just show it to you in a bit. We then start walking back to our car and it was absolutely freezing so we tried to go a short cut which ended up taking us around the back of the parking garage so we just jumped the rails and went on to our car. We got to the car and Trent then again pulls out the DVD player. He was sitting in the driver seat and me in the passenger seat. It was that moment that the rest of my life would change forever. He had made a DVD for me of different points of our relationship and had videoed where we met, our first date, etc. At the end of the DVD, he got on his knee and proposed. He had either rehearsed that part numerous times or he is just dang good because I tell you at the EXACT moment that he had gotten on his knee in the video, he had opened my car door and was on his knee at the exact same time as the video. He had wanted and was trying to propose in the resturaunt until that big party of people beside us totally ruined his moment. Thats ok, it was still priceless and a moment I will never forget.
The biggest, most blessed day of my life to this point is May 3, 2008. I was blessed enough to marry my Best Friend and soul mate. We have had the best marriage anyone could ever ask for. I have said numerous times "I never knew marriage would be so easy". I mean that statement with every breathe in my body. We have had a few small trials in our relationship that we have basically just laughed our way through. It wouldn't have done us any good to get mad, cry or anything else so "lets just laugh about it", is the way we looked at it. We are now facing our biggest hurdle of our marriage. Now, I have always said "if we could make it through our long distance relationship days, we can make it through ANYTHING". I now say, if God put us through all of that to make us stronger for what we are going through now, I Thank God for putting us through those trials. As everyone knows, at this point, we have tried for a baby for a year and 8 months and it is the most difficult thing we have ever had to go through. I absolutely Thank God for blessing me with my amazing husband because there is no one in this world that I could go through this with other than him. He has some of the most admiring qualities that absolutely can not be looked past and has made this journey easier. For just a few, he is the most level headed, unselfish, amazing loving man, and best sense of humor I have EVER known. My husband never ceases to amaze me. We are now venturing into a new area of our marriage and can not wait to see what God has in store for us.
The end (for now at least)
Hopefully one day even if it is a year or so from now, I can complete our Love story with some more awesome blessings and adventures in our life.
I am sorry if I have bored everyone with our Story however, I did partially write this just so that I can have it and add to it later in time when there is more. I pray others are just as blessed as I am.
THANK YOU GOD FOR ALL YOUR BLESSINGS UPON ME AND MY FAMILY!!!
I have always said just how much I LOVE our story. Ok, maybe I just love it because it is our story however, I figured I would share our story for everyone.
(written by Ashlie)
It was August 2002 and I had just started college at Motlow and was playing softball. I was in a relationship that was very rocky and basically coming to an end (and did end in October). I had some classes with some of the baseball boys however never really talked to anyone. Ok, now anyone that knows me, knows that if I don't know you, I am not going to talk to you much. I did however talk to 1 guy in particular quiet a bit and his name was Bennett. He was always picking on me and hinting that one of the other baseball guys liked me. I had always ignored it and not thought much about it. I don't really remember when it was but I kinda put it together who it was (and was later told it WAS Trent) but still never talked to anyone just because I was that quiet shy person who never did talk. Finally, along came January. In January, a lot of the softball and baseball team was getting together at Trent's place. Trent had talked to one of my friends, Crystal, on the softball team and got her to bring me over so we could meet and get to know one another. We had 2 classes together however still never talked to each other at all. I think the only thing that was ever said between us was one time when I was sick, Bennett was making fun of me becuase my voice was basically gone and he wanted me to say something to Trent just so they could pick on me. Anyways, back to the story. So, I went to Trent's place that night with a Crystal and couple of friends. There were a ton of people there and someone already sitting on the couch beside Trent so me and Crystal just sat in the corner. Her in a recliner and me in the floor. We just sat there and talked for a few basically in our own little world. After a few minutes, the person beside Trent got up so I figured at that time, "ok, Trent had someone to bring me so he could meet me so now, he will ask me to come sit beside him." Boy was I wrong. We sat there "in the corner" for a while longer. Finally, I said, "Forget this, Lets go." I basically saw it to be pointless to be there if he was not going to talk to me. We then left and literally like a minute later, another friend who rode with us, her phone started ringing. It was Trent wanting to talk to me. We talked for just a few minutes and had decided that he would come back to Crystal's place instead of me going back to his after just leaving. Just a few minutes later, he showed up and it was a very late night after he showed up. It was really quiet humorous to see us trying to get to know one another. We are both pretty shy upon meeting someone so we both were pretty quiet. Trent did say A LOT more than I did though. He would ask a question and I would give a VERY quick and short response and maybe every now and then think of a question to ask him. Trent had brought someone with him which I later found out was actually his get away if he was not getting into getting to know me. Guess from that point, I was good to go because he never got the dude to be his get away and I am thinking it was about 3 or 4 in the morning before he left that night. He had liked me since August however never approached it since I was dating someone and he never knew till January that we had broke up. We have been attached at the hip since that night that I will NEVER forget. January 20, 2003.
We completed that semester at school and even though it was only my freshman year in college, it was Trent's sophomore year therefore he was getting ready to leave Motlow and go to Martin Methodist in Pulaski to continue playing baseball there. He had stayed at Motlow for summer school which was great for us because it gave us a couple more months to be together. We had lived 10 minutes down the road from one another and then the tough part comes. He moves about an hour and a half away. Wow, was this difficult. It took TONS of adjustments to get used to having a basically 2 hour long distance relationship. We really struggled a lot with tons of fighting during this time frame. Ok, I pretty much knew after the first week of having Trent that he was mine and mine to keep forever however during this long distance relationship time frame, it definitely put a strain on things and had me questioning at times. Lets just make this part of the story quick by saying it was basically constant fighting for a year or a little longer. Trent then moved out of the dorms and into his own apartment and at that point, things got a little better however it was still rocky at times. FINALLY, he graduates college and things would soon get better for us. Trent then moved back in with his parents which was even 30 minutes further which did make it 2 hours. At this point, we had been together for about 2 and a half years with 2 years of long distance relationship. Things slowly but surely made a total turn around for us. We finally figured out how to make things work even with the long distance part. For a couple more years, things were going great even with all the previous struggles and continued long distance. Now lets jump ahead.
Finally after 4 years of dating (approx 6 months 10min away from one another and 3.5 years of long distance). It was January 20, 2007, 4 years to the day after we met and started talking. I started school to be a Sleep Technologist at Vol State and did not know how to get there therefore, Trent would take me and then we would stop in Nashville to eat. We got to Nashville and had decided to eat a Demo's. While in Demos, Trent says "I got something to show you". He then pulls out a portable DVD player and starts a DVD for me. There was a party of about 20 next to us so they were VERY loud and I could not hear anything on the DVD. Trent says ok, fine then, I will just show it to you in a bit. We then start walking back to our car and it was absolutely freezing so we tried to go a short cut which ended up taking us around the back of the parking garage so we just jumped the rails and went on to our car. We got to the car and Trent then again pulls out the DVD player. He was sitting in the driver seat and me in the passenger seat. It was that moment that the rest of my life would change forever. He had made a DVD for me of different points of our relationship and had videoed where we met, our first date, etc. At the end of the DVD, he got on his knee and proposed. He had either rehearsed that part numerous times or he is just dang good because I tell you at the EXACT moment that he had gotten on his knee in the video, he had opened my car door and was on his knee at the exact same time as the video. He had wanted and was trying to propose in the resturaunt until that big party of people beside us totally ruined his moment. Thats ok, it was still priceless and a moment I will never forget.
The biggest, most blessed day of my life to this point is May 3, 2008. I was blessed enough to marry my Best Friend and soul mate. We have had the best marriage anyone could ever ask for. I have said numerous times "I never knew marriage would be so easy". I mean that statement with every breathe in my body. We have had a few small trials in our relationship that we have basically just laughed our way through. It wouldn't have done us any good to get mad, cry or anything else so "lets just laugh about it", is the way we looked at it. We are now facing our biggest hurdle of our marriage. Now, I have always said "if we could make it through our long distance relationship days, we can make it through ANYTHING". I now say, if God put us through all of that to make us stronger for what we are going through now, I Thank God for putting us through those trials. As everyone knows, at this point, we have tried for a baby for a year and 8 months and it is the most difficult thing we have ever had to go through. I absolutely Thank God for blessing me with my amazing husband because there is no one in this world that I could go through this with other than him. He has some of the most admiring qualities that absolutely can not be looked past and has made this journey easier. For just a few, he is the most level headed, unselfish, amazing loving man, and best sense of humor I have EVER known. My husband never ceases to amaze me. We are now venturing into a new area of our marriage and can not wait to see what God has in store for us.
The end (for now at least)
Hopefully one day even if it is a year or so from now, I can complete our Love story with some more awesome blessings and adventures in our life.
I am sorry if I have bored everyone with our Story however, I did partially write this just so that I can have it and add to it later in time when there is more. I pray others are just as blessed as I am.
THANK YOU GOD FOR ALL YOUR BLESSINGS UPON ME AND MY FAMILY!!!
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